rehab, the internet and metamorphosis
today i'm going to brain fart here. seriously, being in rehab for 10 months has turned me into such a different person. like, i couldn't imagine being anywhere for more than a solid month but i survived a whole pregnancy time without my phone or any contact to the outside world. how is that real? but going back to how it's changed me, i honestly don't know what i'd be doing if i didn't end up there. i could be in jail, i could be dead, there are many other possibilities i would NOT like to think about. i had little to no hope for myself and although the rehab i went to was an absolute SHAM and a money grabber i still think it changed me for good. i do think only about a few months give or take was really necessary and towards the end the fact i was locked up in this hellhole made me really depressed and made me spiral all the time i am nonetheless appreciative that this place had given me an entire new character and helped me for good. honestly, i had no faith in my life and being away from (yes i know it's so cliche) the INTERNET and SOCIAL MEDIA actually healed me (among other things). so whenever you feel down and in a really tough spot, trust me when i say that you need some time away from that DAMN phone. my mobile device was seriously dragging me down like fucking crazy and being screen sober for 10 fucking months turned me from a caterpillar into a fucking butterfly i'm so for real with you right now. anyways, that's the end of today's entry. just remember, if you ever feel like you need a break and don't want to end up like me (rehab for ten fucking months) just put your rectangular glowing device down and have some time reading or pursuing a hobby. Bro. Take my advice. bye bye see you in the next entry #BLESS